Book Two - eTimeline - January 24, 2014
Open Discussion
There are many women out there in the world who
probably feel the same way I do when it comes to feeling "I wasted my
life trying to make this business plan work or I wasted my life on someone or
something that wasn't worth my time and effort or my patience." In
a whole lot of ways, I feel like I robbed myself of a life I could of, or
should of have- if would of taken chances to enjoy what life had to offer me,
in order to make myself happy. I admit...I'm not happy! God
and my son Zachary are the only sources that are keeping me a float. I
fault myself for my life wasted! I regret every day I didn't take chances
- or the opportunity to make things work for me and for my life and my son's
life. These are my indiscretions: 1. Relationship - I pushed away a
good man. I admit to that as my first indiscretion. 2. Mapping out
a plan for myself - where I want to be - what I want to do with my life - now
that I have a son...whom I really need to think about when it comes to
providing the best of opportunities life has to offer. That is a goal I
would like to achieve! 3. Building up the courage to bring myself out my
shell of insecurities - when it comes to relationships - making things like my
(business plan and promoting it to the public without feeling afraid of being
rejected, publishing my first two manuscripts - "The Minorities, The Pilot and
The Minorities, Richard's Demise." There
was so much I could have done with life if I would have given myself a chance -
come out of my shell of insecurities - believed in myself more. I know I
would have been happy with my life, if I would take those chances to do just
that. I'm 44 years old...and I've never had a stable relationship with
anyone. "I consider myself - practically - an 'old maid' without
a cause!" I thought I had a stable relationship with my son's
father, but...I was sadly mistaken! I pray for happiness - I pray for
guidance - I pray for understanding for myself - so I can give every
opportunity of a good life to my son, Zachary. I don't want to feel sorry
for myself anymore! I know I need to get off my butt and make things
happen - make my life work for my son's sake. I know it's not going to be
peaches and cream, but...I need to build up my self-confidence and self-esteem
to make a difference in this cruel world. I'm so tired of failing! I
trust in the 'Name of our Lord' to bring me out of what I call - "misery!"
I will finally be happy for a change, I know I will!
Open Discussion
I can only t let the Lord know that I will make a difference in my life, if I trust in him, In the name of Jesus.
ReplyDeletePray about it the lord will make a way for you
ReplyDeletePraying as hard as I can and trusting in the LORD to help me build my self esteem up and my confidence. You commenting is awesome.
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